yes, I am going under the knife tomorrow. I'm not thrilled, but I really am ready to get this behind me. I wanted to thank everyone for your kind words, it gives me a lot of comfort and I appreciate all of your thoughtfulness. It sure helps to know I'm not the only one who has had to go through a miscarriage. So thank you.
I'm not looking forward to being put under anesthesia, that part is the worst, trying to get it out of your system afterwards...yuck! The D&C is an outpatient thing, so at least I get to go home and try to purge all the heavy drugs out of my body while in the comfort of my own home. My mom is so wonderful, she's letting the kids sleep over tonight because I have to be at the hospital at 6:30 in the morning. Can you imagine trying to get up an hour and a half earlier, to get the entire family out of the house by a quarter to 6? No thanks.
There is good and bad to having surgery...the good, we are leaving on our annual beach vacation on Thursday...the bad, I only have one day to get back on my feet before we head down to Southern Cali. The Doctor tried to get me in earlier but there was a C-section scheduled in front of me. What can you do, right?
We are first staying in Anaheim to play at Disneyland, Mark found a hotel room through hotwire.com for only $66, and guess what hotel it ended up being...the Hyatt!! We were only shooting for a 3 1/2 star room, but I'll take the Hyatt any day of the week!! Then after our jaunt through the happiest place on earth, we move on to our beach house!
So recovering down at the beach will be wonderful. I love the sound of the waves crashing on the beach, the seagulls above the sea...for some reason, I don't mind the noise of seagulls. Maybe because our beach trip is one week out of the year and whenever I hear them it takes me back. I could inhale the salty sea air for the rest of my life!! And I can't resist the moisture in the air that softens my skin and curls my hair, and makes Bryanna's coil up even more. One day, we will have a place by the beach, whether to plant ourselves permanently or not...one day.
As for today, I'm psyching myself up for the adventure in the hospital tomorrow. Or, better yet, I've been keeping myself busy so I don't have to even think, and just do.