Autumn, make haste!

So, as of last Thursday, things are going well with baby #3. Sometimes I feel like calling the baby "He-man", mostly because after all my worry (and lots of spotting), the baby is still alive, even after I've convinced myself that I'd miscarry again. So nothing to worry about, right? I guess most of my worries have been laid to rest and I'm just going to roll with the punches. I have been spot free for over a week now (yipee!), and so I think its true that I have stopped worrying. The Doctor did tell me it was OK to play tennis, because gravity isn't an issue with the baby, and because he thinks tennis isn't a strenuous sport. I think he's never seen a tennis match in person, or for that matter, played tennis himself. I am considering playing tennis, but I know me. I run down all the balls, lobes and drop balls. It's just in my nature. Then the worry would start again. I want everything to be A-OK and know that me doing anything physical wouldn't hurt all the funky stuff that's going on in my uterus. Too bad I had signed up for the season before I knew any of the funky stuff was going on. Oh well. Maybe I will get a green light and all will be fine. And deep down, that is my gut feeling, whether or not I will get to play tennis, I know it will all work out and we will have a healthy baby come spring 2010.

On to other happenings, Bryanna starts preschool tomorrow. I am looking forward to her being in school and having that social outlet. She thrives on friendships, and having something to do other than hanging out with dear old mom all day, everyday.

I know you will all think me crazy, but I am praying for autumn to come. It has been so stinkin hot, I can't take it anymore. I just want it to cool down to the 70's and I'd be happy as a camper. This 110 degrees is really getting on my nerves and I want it to stop. Since I'm pregnant I feel I can demand for such a request. So I've put out fall decor already, along with some Halloween stuff. This is why you think I'm crazy. Mark thinks so, but secretly, its my way of kicking summer out and welcoming the cool air. I'm dreaming of pumpkin patches, carmel apples, corn mazes, ghosts and goblins and hot apple cider, among all the yummy treats that I love to make for fall.

An answer to many questions

Today I had my first Dr's appt. for my pregnancy. I wasn't nervous, just wanted to finally see the growing baby in my tummy. But when the Nurse Practitioner was doing the exam, there was no baby! I am really sad that the baby didn't make it, but for some reason I wasn't completely shocked. I kind of had a feeling that something wasn't quite right, but only since Sunday. I would rather have a miscarriage early on than any later in the pregnancy. Plus, I feel comfort knowing things happen for a reason. Of course, I don't know the reason, but maybe in the next life, there will be an explanation. I was due Jan 5th and I was 10 weeks.

I had to get an ultrasound just to make sure that the Nurse didn't miss anything. Sure enough, there was no baby. It measured to be six weeks in size, but you can never know exactly when the fetus dies. And after it dies, it starts to shrink. So it could have been even last week that the fetus stopped developing. There was the sac though, and it looked as though my body will be able to take care of it naturally. I really hope it won't be too painful. I haven't started any bleeding yet, and that's what I think the Nurse was confused about the most. So I'm anticipating a few bad days this week and maybe even next week.

I'm grateful for Mark, a worthy priesthood holder, and the blessings he gives me to offer peace and comfort during a time like this. I know things will work out and that we will be able to get pregnant again later this year. When things like this happen, it makes me even more grateful for the healthy kids I already have and the wonderful blessing they are to me.

spring

I love spring, for many reasons. There are many occasions that Mark and I celebrate together, our anniversary for one. And then my birthday is 10 days later. We have found that we need to save up for those seeing as how close together they are. But one thing we don't need any money to celebrate is springtime. Mother nature is at its best, and most beautiful, {according to me} in the Springtime. There are numerous primary songs about all the spring, but I especially love this one:

Because It's Spring

Why is the sky so blue and clear? Why is the robin's song so dear?

Why is the sun so warm and bright, Filling the earth with glorious light?

Why are the fields so green today? Why do the clouds all float away?

Why does my heart with gladness sing? Only because it's spring!

Last summer we put in our backyard, so I missed out on our spring flowers with the move. This year it has taken my breath away. We didn't pull alot of the small flowers we planted in the fall during the cold winter months, and I'm so glad we didn't. Our backyard is in FULL bloom now!

{before}

{now}

Spring, in all it's glory!

my little flower girl!

I must enjoy it while it lasts, for in Vegas, spring time is only a short month before the heat moves in for 3 long months.